I never have anything real to say in these journals haha.
Anyway, this is an edit of an old journal because i lost my subscription ages ago (don't ask me why there's still an = beside my name...), and i'm really reluctant to say goodbye to my pretty Journal skin. It really spiffs up my Gallery page and i'd miss it. Gray is such a boring colour after all. So if this edit thing doesn't work, then goodbye pretty journals...

Not much has changed for me in the past few months, i just passed my driving test on the 5th of October and have been driving about and going to university... yeah, not much has been going on. I WAS drawing a picture of Samus Aran, since she's so badass, but then my sister came home from England to visit for a week, and that stopped me. I then got the flu and was bedridden for 5 days...that more than stopped me, and now my sister is coming back again lol Will it ever get finished? Methinks by the time i get back to it i will want to draw something else haha. Oh and i suppose i should mention i turned 21

Sorry to those of you who were waiting for my next picture... i have abandoned it.

As you know, i'm revamping my style, and i knew it would take some time, but it's still irritating.
I started the picture as normal... almost. I went into it without a clear concept, or a concept at all, actually, all i knew was that i wanted it to be a Death Note picture, and i just struggled through it, which is always a mistake with me. I just made it up as i went along, with a blank mind. I spent hours doing the line art. I do that with every picture, but this one took ages because i didn't think it through. Despite that, i did spew something out and began to ink it, badly (especially Misa), then began to colour it.

It was when i began to colour it that i began to hate it. I tried to fix one TINY problem on L's skin, and just ruined it. I'm a perfectionist with my art, so that was just a deal breaker. I was trying a new colouring style with it, so it was kind of bound to happen... I haven't looked at it since. I can't. So that's one of the few pictures i did that will never get finished. Bit of an exclusive club really. God, i wasted so much time on that. Of course it didn't help that my parents called me away to do something EVERY TIME i actually wanted to colour it.

If enough people ask me, i might upload it into my scraps so you can see the picture that never was, and you will understand why it needed to be abandonded. So ask if you want to see it.

I'm going to pick myself up and soldier on though. At least i did achieve a change of drawing and colouring style in it. That's something at least... On to my next picture... i have to think HARD on this next one. wish me all the best. Stay tuned.

In other news, my sub is going to die soon again I remember when i had a years sub. That was great

Here's a short journal because i'm tired and lazy. Enjoy it
Come saturday afternoon i'll be free and clear of uni for almost 5 months. Awesome.
You may have noticed that my sub isn't gone yet, thats thanks to a generous 3 month donation by *Sanone Much love to you Sanny

Well, in my last poll i said i'd find a way to show my unfinished art to those who wanted to see it without spoiling it for those who don't want to see it, and i concluded linking to my photobucket or something would be best, so here you go~

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SERIOUSLY THOUGH here you go, lol:
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You all knew that was inevitable. I'm determined that should be the new "thing". I mean, look at those dance moves. And i don't know what's whiter, his t-shirt or his teeth. Seriously, watch the whole thing for glow in the dark ultraviolet lips. Yes, i'm in a playful mood, which, unfortunately for everyone else means some irritation lol. Playful irritation of course. You know you love me.

Self Promotion

Still proud of

Clubs

Stamps

Get this CSS!

EDIT: Well, this will be my last journal before my subscription ends. Just an update to say i'm working on a picture right now. Trying to make my style more sophisticated...and i chose to start changing my style by drawing two MEN. Right, something i wasn't great at to begin with... way to go me. I can tell that this picture is going to fail already lol I'll be looking for some critique with this picture when i finally upload it. I guess i should let you all know of my progress so far, which means i'll be kind of ruining the surprise of what i'm drawing... should i do that? Hmmm, final poll time! /EDIT


Yeah, i'm having one of those days. You know, one where you realise your art sucks and you need to improve drastically. Those days suck, right? Well, maybe not. Maybe it will lead me to a better place, and maybe i'll actually improve.
My style is pissing me off. It's so simple and lacks detail. I want it to be more...grown up or something. And no, that doesn't mean abandoning anime style for realism. Realism is boring for me. I feel like i haven't improved at all over the past year. What worries me most about my current skill level is that i dislike all my art now, and i actually thought i worked to get those like that. Thats terrible for me. I know i can do better.
I want to change my style to really earn those expensive copics i have. It's going to take a long time and i'm going to fail a lot until i get it right and find my new style (and i'm aiming for a total overhaul here) but i'm asking all you guys to bear with me and wait it out until, HOPEFULLY, i turn into something much better.

_{Ok, i lied, i DO still like some of my art. Or one single picture at least...}

EDIT: So, you know how i said i'm on my way to getting my driving license? And after i get my license i'll be getting a car? Well...funny how things work out, that plan actually happened backwards. THAT'S RIGHT, I HAVE A CAR. Me, a car, ME. I am SO damn excited!!! And i don't mean i'm GOING to get one, or i'm discussing it with my parents, no, i mean as in i'm looking at it right now, i can see it from my bedroom window (while i try to focus and do my eassay). I went to uni car-less and came home and it was mine. Look at it!





I love the colour to death. It's a diesel, exactly what i wanted. My parents knew how i disliked driving petrol cars so this is just perfect. It has remote central locking, electric windows, air conditioning, a brand new clutch, 5 doors, all new tyres, alloy wheels, a new battery and a CD player. Now all i need to do is get insured (which is really cheap for some reason. One advantage of being a girl i guess.) Now we have 4 cars at home, one for each of us lol. My other sister sold her car, she lives in London and doesn't need one here in Ireland otherwise it would be 5 lol My sisters car is too big, so i get that parking space, HUZZAH!
Ok, i'm starting to ramble, but that's a huge piece of news for me!!! My very first car.
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As usual, i don't really have anything to say, but i feel the need to update.

You might like to know i'm currently working on a new picture, it should be up by the end of this week if all goes well. It's turning out pretty cute...unless i mess it up when i colour it Keep in mind i have 2 essays and a project to do in that time, i have like a week left to do them, but i really can't motivate myself to start them. Fail anyone? lol

I'm just too wrapped up in my picture and my Flute, which is going well by the way (oh and wrapped up in being lazy too). I'm learning Greensleeves and the opening theme from Morrowind III. Hurrah!
Now, just because i feel like putting in a picture, here's my flute, along with my bag. I feel so grown up in uni with this lol
No really, i do love it. And yes, i just washed my duvet cover, thats why it's just sitting on my bed rather than being on the duvet. Did i mention i'm feeling lazy? Those are three pillow cases to the left exciting right?


I keep missing the new episodes of fugly betty, what's wrong with me? How hard is it to remember THURSDAYS? Pssh, they just cut out a semi-sexual scene in the simpsons. Idiots, the whole episode is about them haivng sex in public ¬_¬ Another thing that's annoying me is those stupid gossip magazines. Really, why is it news when Posh looses 5Lbs? Really, they put that on the cover (appearantly her weight "plummeted" by 5lbs), along with a picture of Jordan walking along with the caption "Jordan crippled by new regime". Wooooow, she's crippled, yet still manages to walk around as normal. Astonishing

Aaaanyway back to doing...nothing in particular